Let's talk about who I am...right now.

I loveeeeeeeeee to read. Especially when it's stuff pertaining to myself =D Anyways. Lately I've been really procrastinating type hard. Mainly because of my panic disorder. I'm scared of college, being out on my own and simply failing at my life. If that makes sense =/ I'd try to see the good in all this if I was actually doing something but I'm afraid not. It'll be a year in July that I haven't had a job if I don't get one before then. I'm always setting goals and getting scared when I get close to reaching them. I just stop. I wonder when fear took over me. Why me? As a kid I had dreams and I still have those dreams but I'm not excited anymore. Eh. I could cry about how life blows but I've read some other people's stories and let's just say I don't meet the crying requirements. There's so much I would like to do. I just don't like being pushed to do things. I feel alone. Ugly even. I'm kind of depressed but I'm not unpleasant to be around. I don't believe in making people feel like I. Unless I'm just having a royally shitty day. I still feel bad a little though. I miss my old self sometimes. Who I am right now is not soooo different but I've grown and some of the old me just stayed. I'm still emotional, goofy, smart and kind. I've gained the blunt all bullshit aside part of me as of maybe 2 years ago. I like her. In other news I still have bills to pay. NO JOB. Single. About to gain another year of wisdom. 22 =P I don't even know where I wanna go yet. Stripclub is not even in my equation. It's around this time when I hate being single the most. No cutie patootie on my arm. Horoscopes says he's around. Hopefully he finds me. No rush delivery. No. Take your sweet old time....



Just another day on Planet Me.