What's 2s?!

So it's been awhile.

Back to unemployment. No dates. No potentials. Nothing but me.

I am amazed that I'm still here. Anybody else would've have been in the psychward by now...

So my h.s. crush popped back in my life for the 3rd time. I have no idea what that means. It's pretty clear I like him still and the feelings feel mutual sometimes but others it just feels like...how do I say this...bare? lol Either way he hasn't said if he likes me or not.

My issue is MY feelings. I'm a Pisces (& that's all that needs to be said) I ain't gonna do to much baring of the soul much longer. Vunerability is setting in and the tide is motherfucking high. I will surf my ass up out of here faster than he can reach for me. Bottom line....I NEED to be in the know. Things have a tendency to go sour when I don't.

Don't get me wrong he's a VERY nice guy. Mature. He's in school. He's got a lot going for him.

BUT so do I.

Time waits for no one. I want him though lol He reminds me of Kanye. Which so happens to be my new celeb crush...lol I wonder why?

I just feel like it's my Beyonce duty to upgrade.

Time for me to find a new male bff since I won't be seeing that face anymore =[ I miss all my sand dunes from work. They rocked.

I diddddddddd go to the pier to catch up with my girls. It was like drinking a soda and saying "aaaaaaah" afterwards. I love them. I needed that. Team Miami forever.

Family is knocking restricted. I wonder if I should answer....

I don't like when people pop up out of nowhere with their all of a suddens lashing out at me. I'm an adult. I should be able to do what I feel like doing. If only I could shake their hold on me. I think I could finally be free.

I'm a vibrant spirit. Learn to love that about me.

In the words of Kanye...

PEWN! PEWN! PEWN!

-Ash