:D

So my mom is back. & she feels better kind of. Glad she's back though. THAT was scary.

I still feel a little weird myself. It's kind of achy. & it's not cramps. Elk.

My little sis had a talk with mr. today. She's a smart kid. Strangely I feel that he's being distant now. & I wanna know why. There's no need for it.

Honestly.

Right now you're the closest to me as you can possibly be if that makes sense. & what happened back then is something I cannot be mad at. If anything it made us closer. Though I may hold it against you it's not because I'm still hurt. Not by a long shot. In all actuality I don't even hold it against you I just hold onto it. As I do all memories. Good or bad.

When I think of a "me and you" I think of great conversations, lots of laughter & love. In reality I'm reminded of thousands of miles, our paths, & your heartache. I never knew you felt like she was the love of your life until today. Maybe you told me & I forgot. I felt weird at first. The thing you typed after that. The thing you typed about me. Adoring me & not trusting yourself with being more than my friend reassured me. Life made no mistakes. I know you for a reason. BUT I feel like once you're shook to the core with a love you have for someone it's HARD to feel that with anyone else. You'd want it with them. I'd never want to compete with someone for a heart because I know I don't have too. & I shan't. & it's not that I'm not feeling you that way it's all of these things I type. I like you. Make no mistake. It's just some things are better left admired. Our friendship being one. If it's in the stars for me and you to be anything more I wouldn't dare interfere. Matters of the heart are quite serious. & until that day I will do all I can to be a great friend to you. & I think it's really cute that you picked my bday as our wedding day ((hugs)) I wouldn't mind marrying you. Don't tell yourself I said that :)

OH!

If you happen to find love like that again I hope you'd tell me first. Or second.

Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium is a sad movie. That is all.

:))))))))))))))

-Ash