Possum Playing?

"Come back from the dead...you left my...my heart here..."

So the first guy hasn't persued since I last wrote BUT there's this new one that played into me. We're supposed to hang thursday. I'm supposed to be excited but I feel like I ruined it.

Here's why.

Sunday I lost one of my favvvvvvvvvvvvorite jackets from Nike. That started my crappy day. I'm guessing he's a guy that likes to chase but I'm a girl that has no time to waste. I kind of took my stank attitude out on him though. I strongly dislike one word responses via text and also when people don't text me back I go crazzzzzzzzzzzzzzy! He does them both. He's like me but then he's opposite if that makes sense. I call him Mr. Shade cause he throws it like a football. He probably doesn't even see things the way I do but that's why I'm a woman and he's a man right? lol He said I think too much and I agree. Yet I can't help to think I ruined things before they even got the chance to begin. My friend said she thinks he likes me a lot but I think I'm annoying. I've texted him damn near everyday since wed. As of sunday I haven't spoken to him and he hasn't reached out. I'm hoping he still thinks I'm a "breath of fresh air" as he puts it.

La sigh....

I suck at this "dating/hanging/chilling" thing with guys because I've never done it. I don't wanna turn him off. I REALLY like him. He's so intelligent and modest. I need a guy like that in my life. He could very well be the one that pushes me to live fully. He's essential. I gotta have him in my circle. IT'S A MUST!

Well when Wednesday comes around we'll know for sure. I hope he texts me cause if not then I'll know for sure it is what it is.

Ok A I'm gonna let you chase me. I'll run slow.....=]

I'm OFF!

-Ash

P.S. wish me luck!!!!