Every Now & Then...

I think about you when I stare at the sky. It doesn't shine as bright as when I knew you. You shared your dreams. Made me laugh. Now I listen to the wind to get me through. I feel close knowing that when it rains here you hear it on your roof too. Every now and then and again and again and again. I hope you miss me too.

I always wonder if you'll stop me in a crowded place; If when I ask for a hot chocolate you'll ask if I want "marshmallows with that?"; Will you be waiting at the pier with your watch and a smile?

No time soon.

Today is the day you tell her you love her. Tomorrow is the day you surprise her with a picnic. Next weekend you'll take her dancing. On her birthday you'll propose. You'll marry in the Springtime. Honeymoon in Atlantis.

WAIT...that's MY dream (hehehe)

As of lately I've loathed being single. Like really. I'm rather bored. Can't seem to fathom how someone could be happy like this. Nobody to read to. Nobody to laugh with. Nobody to stare at in awe when he tells me something I've never heard before.

I've been into romance for as long as I can think back. I don't want a white picket dream though.

I want to spends summer days at the zoo. Go to the pond and feed ducks. We'll stay in and cuddle. Watch movies and talk during them :)

He'll surprise me with notebooks instead of flowers. We'll try something new everytime we go out. Sometimes eating dessert first ;-)

We'll enjoy the quiet. Sit indian style in the grass and meditate. He'll tickle me until I get up and run. Then he'll chase me until he catches me. He'll kiss me all over my face like he's lovesick lol

Sometimes. Sometimes. Sometimes. I wish I could get my head out of the clouds long enough to realize I've been in the clouds all along.

I know what you're thinking.

Does a man like that even exist?

The answer is yes. I know he does. I feel it. & I hope he's looking for me.


So here's to you. Whoever you are. Wherever you are. I know you're made for me. I'll be waiting. & when we meet...we'll walk slow :)


Dreaming of you then and now.

-Ash