NOT.
Come-pair-uh-sons
Are easily done once you've had a TASTE of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got a seed
You say move on
Where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know...
Dear " ",
* You said you'd do anything to fix my broken pieces.
* You were supposed to meet my mom.
* You said you wanted to read my poetry
* You convinced me to read to you. I loved it.
* You said I was special.
* You asked me to marry you.
* You asked me to come live with you.
* You wanted to hold my hand & walk the "red carpet" with me.
* I was your Amby & you my Kanye.
* You said we'd grow old together.
* You said you wanted 7 kids. 2 of the 7 being twins.
* You said "3rd times a charm baby".
* You woke me up every morning.
* You were the only one I permitted to call me by my middle name.
* You never forgot to call me at midnight.
* I was your ace.
* You called me lemon pie.
* You said you were gonna visit.
* You asked me to stay in your room with you.
* You asked if I'd lay beside you.
* You said you'd take a vacay & surprise me.
* You wanted me to show you the city.
* You never came.
* You said "when will I wake up to you?"
* You said you were counting down the days until I came home.
* You said you'd teach me how to drive.
* You said we had so much in common.
* We were supposed to add to your wardrobe.
* You got that great haircut.
* I still owe you some Nikes.
* I'm sorry you lost your parents (a year apart). I wanted to be there for you. I wanted you to know that.
* I came home.
Remember you said you'd be there for me? Always?
Dear " ",
You lied.
One of the buddies said they saw you & her at the mall last week. I'm so disgusted. Normally people would be jealous. I'm just pissed off at YOU. Ah well. Guess my friendship wasn't enough for you. Never thought you'd be the one iggin' me. Wow. Smh I can't believe WAIT I can believe I'm still not over you. We've been through a lot. All GREAT things. Now we have nothing. I can't delete your texts. I can't erase our poetry. We were supposed to end up together. Happy. Your heart tells me different. Now all I want to find is what you've already found. All the things I was supposed to be for you.
I try to be like you. I try to forget. I try to move on. I try to throw away the years of butterflies you gave me. I try to forget last day of summer when you changed my life. Forever.
& since you've been gone I see you in everything. You're in the sunshine. The wind. The sky. The night. The stars. My senses. My heart.
Everyday I play the role. Pretending to be OVER all of this. WHY did you do this to me? Was I your emotional rebound since she was gone? Now that she's back you're leaving me? I'm sorry but I don't understand. & sadly you won't explain. Guess I should've been doing my homework. Forgive me. I've loved you since I was 14. Can't just turn that off. I've had 9 years to adore you. How do you forget that? Why must I forget that? Why did YOU forget that?
& how come it was so easy?
Now we'll never know what could've been. & maybe it's best that way. It was a trying time for both of us. We lost a lot. We gained eachother. We lost eachother. No matter what happens in life. I just want you to know...
I don't hate you. I miss you. "We" were the best of times.
May your cup be so full of love that you never experience thirst again.
-Ash
P.S.
Remember when I tried to play it off & you told me "mean what you say and say what you mean"? Well your answer was right. I did love you. Sorry I didn't tell you.
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